It Had To Be You...

 When I was 9 or 10, I decided that I was going to have a journal. I don't know if this happened because I wanted to write about my elementary school drama or because of the fact I got this cool journal with a wolf on it, but I wanted to write. The last time I went back home, I found the journal with only about 10 of the pages filled. Reading it, I realized three things.

1. I was a TERRIBLE writer back then.

2. Life of a 10 year old is not that interesting

3. I started every journal post the exact same way: "Dear journal, sorry I haven't written in a while."

I realize it's been over 2 months since my last blog input. I have been writing, but most of what I've had to say is being effectively said through Twitter or my songwriting. None of my thoughts have exceeded 140 characters since April. But a few things happened in the last few weeks that caused me to think "I should write a blog on that". This is one of them.

A few weeks ago, I had the honor of being in a good friend's wedding. I had a blast hanging out with him, the groomsmen & the rest of the bridal party. She was a beautiful bride and it was a beautiful service, complete with perfect music selections (which is an incredible compliment coming from a music elitist like myself). 

As the bride and groom stood there I couldn't see his reactions, but I had a clear view of the bride. She was staring right in his eyes and I knew immediately what her expression meant: I will follow you anywhere. There was a sense of complete trust and faith towards this man she was committing her life. 

I'm a single man who hasn't been in a relationship in a long time, but at that moment I knew I wanted a woman to look at me like that. Someone who will give me their hand and trust me to lead her wherever life takes us. It's a huge and frightening responsibility that I'm certainly not ready for at this moment, but I want it some day.

Like I said in the previous paragraph, I haven't dated in a long time. It's not that I haven't tried, it's just that for one reason or another the potential fell apart. After many failed attempts at relationships, I now know and have faith that when I'm ready, God will reveal the right woman for me. But until then, He will keep shaping me into the man that a Godly woman will desire.

I know that many of you are in my position. Being a college graduate, there's societal pressures weighing on me, a topic I will be branching out more on in a later blog post. Many people my age are getting to the point of finding their 'mate' and getting married. My only advice to single people: Don't let the panic bring you down. Everything comes in its own time and in it's own season. Do what I do; use 1 Corinthians 13: 4 - 7 as a benchmark for your life. Ask yourself if these attributes of love are being implemented into your life every day.

My good friend and band mate Lindsey Paige has a song on her EP that has to do with leading the single life called 'Lonely Tonight'. It's an incredible piece of songwriting that I would encourage everyone to check out. Closing this post out with the lyrics to the chorus seem fitting.

                     I miss you even though I don't know your name
                     I wait for you like the desert waits for the summer rain
                     it's been a knock down, drag out
                     I'm still alone now, ruthless fight
                     But until you're here to stay
                     I'll choose to be lonely tonight.